Existential Monday

I thought long and hard today about how to break up the monotony. I thought about it, and I tried to think about all the great things about my life. I'm glad I don't live in an earthquake zone, I'm glad I don't have a son who just committed suicide (I'm thinking of Marie Osmond and the parents of that guy who acted in Growing Pains), I'm glad I have my own room and my own place and I'm glad I have enough shoes for awhile. But as for the monotony ... I'm still thinking. It could last forever; forever, that is, until I die, and then what? I could be doomed to eternal monotony, but only I control my destiny. And when I refer to "eternal," I mean however long that will last.